cole's land :D

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Revival

Alright, this place is dusty. I know. Hahas. Since im feeling bored, im here to revive it. It wont be alive for long though, HA!, since im leaving for US on sat. Yay! I've been so bored after ver and k left for their respective holidays and i've practically been rotting at home. I received a message from k and i was like OMG when i saw it. HAHA. I was so freaking glad to see it and the snow in the picture looked totally fab. Makes me anticipate my own holiday more. Anyway, i shall just post up some pictures from prom.

spoke at : 11:49 AM

Monday, October 05, 2009

Contrary.

How can it be so void,
that it seems like anyone will do?

spoke at : 6:56 PM

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Revelation.

So tempted to ask,
for the sake of knowing,
and to get my mind off it.

Damn, i need some sleep.

spoke at : 7:42 PM

Monday, September 28, 2009

With no doors in or out.

Over and over again,
we find ourselves lost and empty.
The memories we cant let go of,
and new wounds that materialise.

Talking to you makes me wonder a lot,
it seems we really are like two peas in a pod.
And i like that you understand.

spoke at : 8:29 PM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Lose control.

Focus, breathe nicole breathe.
4 months, 4 freaking months.
Fuck a levels.

spoke at : 3:24 PM

Friday, July 17, 2009

For all the wrong reasons.

I feel sad, worried and thankful, all at the same time.
I avoid because im afraid of changes,
because i like holding on to all the beautiful things that had happened.
I fear changes, because what has yet to happen is unpredictable.
But because of that, i always hurt the people i least want to.
Argh, what's wrong with me.

spoke at : 5:36 PM

Thursday, July 16, 2009

너라고

Okay, i know i havent been updating in a long long time, so here i am.
Last friday was really exciting cause the greys minus shilin went to kiesha's place for a sleepover. We played more boardgames than i usually would in a year! When we played game of life, the life i had in the game was bloody chaotic. Like initially i was a lawyer turned salesperson turned entertainer who has 2 kids and adopted 2 more. So k's brother said it was like madonna. Lols. The final dare from the truth or dare jenga was hilarious. And like who plays jenga at 2am in the morning?! LOL. We slept at 3 and k's younger brother walked into the room at 10 screaming 'wake up!!! I have tuition at 11!!!'. And the first thing i thought when i opened my eyes was 'kiesha has tuition at 11?!', cause i wasnt wearing my specs and so i thought that the person standing at the door was k. lol. Well that was before i realised she was still lying next to me.

We've also finally gotten back our pw stuff, like the comments and submitted work. Although i already knew we got an a, but it was still nice to read the marker's praises.

Yay, its a decent post!

spoke at : 4:44 PM

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

거짓말

The emotions i never thought i would feel.

spoke at : 5:20 PM

Friday, July 03, 2009

A superficial kinda thing.

I feel so lost whenever you say something like that.
Its makes me think and think and think so much that i end up frustrated.
The person you are makes me question the things i do and say, so much so it becomes pointless for me to even bother.

spoke at : 7:51 PM

For no rhyme or reason.

I like this picture. Has a nice comfortable feel to it. I like how the background's all dark and the only thing you see is us.

spoke at : 7:37 PM

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Went for dinner with gan and jiayi yesterday night, supposedly as our belated birthday celebration. Gan became our camera man because he claimed he was 'camera shy'. LOL. But thanks for dinner gan. And thank you for the wu gui (see below), and yes, its definitely something that would remind us of you. Thank goodness you didnt get all narcissistic and give us a picture of youself.

And btw, the new dessert shop near the yoghurt shop in hub is good. The mango with sago&pomelo's really sweet but really good.
Thank you jiayi for the letter. (:

Okay, next, thank you to 0814 and my beloved greys for the mp3. Much loves. Im touched. (:

spoke at : 11:17 AM

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Old old old.

Okay. Im officially 18. Boo. I feel old.
Went out with the greys on mon to celebrate at fish&co the glasshouse. They just had to make me so embarrassed, i almost had to stand on a chair while they sang the birthday song. Thank goodness i was wearing a skirt. Yay, saved by the skirt.
Yes, but im touched, thanks lovelies. Although the pictures are on woon baboon's blog, but i shall just post some.

Oh, and yesterday night, i went traders hotel for buffet, and guess what? I had gastric pains. Boo. So i didnt eat much. But cause i was sitting at the table so much, i was looking around and saw this really good looking guy. LOL. Blessing in disguise eh?

spoke at : 10:08 AM

Friday, June 12, 2009

Arghhh! the weather!

Roar! Its so warm today that i ~~used~~ ate up 4 trays of ice cubes. AHHH! Like ice cubes with my soybean, ice cubes with my water, ice cubes with my milk, ice cubes with practically everything! Damn i feel so sleepy but its SO warm!

A secret to be kept, forever if possible.

spoke at : 11:21 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009

totally wasted.

Its weird how it seems so easy to hold on to the things that tear you apart,
and so trying to look past the pain and embrace the beauty of it.

spoke at : 9:07 PM

Thursday, June 04, 2009

Perhaps you're right.

Yeah, maybe i dont understand.
But the bottom line is that i have no intention to.
I dont like being dragged along with your emotions,
just spare me the drama would you.
I dont need to know.

spoke at : 6:01 PM

Tuesday, June 02, 2009

Too much, too fast.

Its 2nd of june.
Shit.

spoke at : 6:36 PM

Friday, May 29, 2009

Now tell me, which part of that statement do you not understand?
Are you freaking retarded or something?
Basically, i DONT care.
Cause my life's fucked up enough and i dont wanna give a shit about yours.
Are you like testing my patience or something?

spoke at : 3:59 PM

Second thoughts.

Gp exam was today. It was okay i guess. But i kinda regret doing the question i did. Lets put it this way, im always scared for my essay. Im so afraid of writing out of point. But oh well, its over.
Why are you being so bloody arrogant? Why are you being so childish? Freaking aa.

spoke at : 2:18 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Silence is good.

You? Dont make me laugh. You, out of so many people, have no bloody right to say that.
Dont be so full of yourself, cause its annoying.
Dont preach your little theories at me, cause you aint any saint yourself.

spoke at : 8:31 PM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

Playin with fire.

Empty.
It feels comforting to know im not alone.
Someone who knows exactly how it feels.
The little worries and the premature thoughts.
Empty, fill the gaps.

spoke at : 10:45 PM

Saturday, May 02, 2009

Irritated

But why do i have to?
Who are you?
I hate it when you behave like its a must for me.
Grow up, stop being a kid.
You need attention, want attention, yeah, but here's not the place.
Stop making it seem like i have an obligation towards you, cause i dont.
I dont need to, dont want to and dont have to.

spoke at : 10:01 PM

Friday, April 17, 2009

The swan song i couldnt wait to finish.

Yesterday was our syf. I guess the dance went well, well considering the amount of effort put in. On the stage, the were no thoughts of getting a gold or whatsoever. It was like i just wanted to get it over and done with. Vastly different from when we were doing 'set-me-free'. The passion we had for it and the dedication, sweat and euphoria from that dance, i didnt feel yesterday. Rather i felt kinda sad that the last dance in jc had to be a dance like this, one that i felt nothing for. When i saw the drive and pride of the other schools, i thought of 'set-me-free'. That sense of pride was what we didnt have. I felt so unhappy that i didnt love what i was doing. When they announced the results, i didnt feel anything much. No anticipations, no disappointments. For these past few months, yeah, a silver's great.
I miss mf dance, i miss dancing with mf dancers, i miss ms chua, i miss set-me-free.

spoke at : 3:55 PM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

I wanna drink starbucks now.

Got pw results on thurs. Thankfully it was an A. All the hard work and effort paid off i guess. We did it, NY071.

spoke at : 1:24 PM

Monday, March 30, 2009

Unbelievable

Omg, i cant believe it, i think i got a gold for napfa. The first time i got it was at the first napfa in p4, and i never got it again until this yr. LOL. Gold for the first and last napfa.
What if we never realised that the one he was talking about is you?

spoke at : 5:51 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Because i fear.

The strength and courage to hang on slowly peel away.
And whats left is the uncertainty hidden within.
Where inside is a whole lot of contradictions.
What exactly am i afraid of?
Because i live in my own world, because no one will understand.

spoke at : 6:58 PM

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Worlds apart.

Forget it, stupid outburst.
We're all different,
but that doesnt mean we dont need a little love once in a while.
Affection versus malice.

spoke at : 6:44 PM

Perhaps, maybe.

spoke at : 6:42 PM

Saturday, March 07, 2009

The things that render you helpless.

This is life.
Face up to it and stop being a fag.

spoke at : 9:53 PM

Friday, March 06, 2009

We all need a little love.

I got a big fat C for chinese. Boo. I was hoping for a B but oh wells. The funny thing was that oral got a distinction, it means that my main paper really sucked. If i did badly for oral, i would have prob ended up with a D. LOL.
Sometimes, its all we need to feel blessed.

spoke at : 9:17 PM

Friday, February 27, 2009

Hold on.

I miss my youth,
i think i haven had enough.
I dont want to grow up,
im not ready to.

spoke at : 10:50 PM

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Slips through fingers.

What am i doing here when there's block tests tmr. BOO.
Wake up nicole.
Go study.

Happy birthday eddie gan.

spoke at : 2:20 PM

Friday, February 20, 2009

Let go, its okay.

I dont regret, i just wonder. A lot.

spoke at : 8:38 PM

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I need a reason to.

I see no point in trying so hard to make my tomorrow beautiful.
We often question the purpose of life, and it seems i cant find mine.
To life for myself they say, but what is it i want?
Tell me, what can i live for?

spoke at : 5:49 PM

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Unloved.

Im a lucky kid. I know.
But sometimes, its more that just that.
I dont need all the fancy things in the world,
cause there's only so much i can use.
The little surprises and effort put in,
thats what we really need.
Once upon a time.

spoke at : 10:34 PM

Monday, February 09, 2009

We're lost the smile.

When we were young,
things were so simple.
When something made us happy,
we laughed.
When we felt hurt or pain,
we cried.

But now,
its just not the same.
A little lost.

spoke at : 5:33 PM

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

Perhaps.

When i feel so tired and wonder what everything is for.

I stop trying.

spoke at : 10:37 PM

Monday, February 02, 2009

Smile, cause its all we've got.

We used to be so much more truthful.

What exactly are we afraid of?

spoke at : 9:48 PM

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Overload.

Some photos from steamboat at ver's place.

Reminiscence.

spoke at : 12:21 PM

Friday, January 30, 2009

Hang on.

Fairydust.

spoke at : 8:51 PM

Thursday, January 22, 2009

One of those days.

As the title suggests, its one of those days.
Where i feel insignificant and really alone.
I hate everything, i hate every single itsy bitsy teeny thing.
Hypocrite. Fake smile fake words fake person. Bitch.
Everything, everything's a show.
A parade of facades and lies.
Welcome to my absolutely fucked up world.

spoke at : 10:11 PM

Friday, January 16, 2009

Just a little crazy, a little out of control.

School has officially started. Boo. Open house on tues was okay. We spent most of our time inside the mpr. So some pictures.

spoke at : 5:13 PM

Monday, January 12, 2009

Once again.

Here we go again.
Merely a dream.

spoke at : 11:07 PM

Friday, January 09, 2009

Patchwork.

3 more days to school.
Yes, im an extremely unsympathetic & insensitive person. Have it your way, i dont care. idiot

spoke at : 5:44 PM

Thursday, January 01, 2009

A new beginning.

Farewell 2008, hello 2009.

Gosh, what a year.

spoke at : 8:54 PM

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

But why?

We used to be so happy, really.

spoke at : 11:39 AM

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Childlike.

I feel so sad that the year's coming to an end. Roar. Cause that means that soon i've got to go back to school. I dont mind going back actually, but im afraid to considering im not in the 'i've got to slog my guts out & chiong for stupid a' levels mood'. Its 28th december, i wonder how long more it would take for me to wake up.
Ps, after watching mirotic again, i conclude that dbsk is super hot.

spoke at : 6:53 PM

Friday, December 26, 2008

Fear, what a wonder.

Fear, what you could be and what you have become.
The many actions that never fail to surprise.
Judge, i try not to.
But you cant seem to provide reasons why i shouldnt.
My friend, the stranger.

spoke at : 3:59 PM

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Of all the things that could happen.

But it was definitely a nice surprise.

spoke at : 2:02 PM

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

If you say so.

Yay, im gng out on fri with jiayi. I haven seen her in a long long time. I wanna go shopping! Cause there's just so much to buy (self proclaimed necessities).
Was looking at some prom pictures from last yr, & it made me feel like time was passing way too fast. Just a year ago, so much had been different. Seasons change, trends change, people change. Yet its not the change but the rate of it that scares me. As the year comes to a near end, i feel old, but immature. Like a five year old trapped in the body of a seventeen. There's so much of me that is unable to embrace what the future holds.
I like living in the past, for that is all i can be certain of.

spoke at : 5:55 PM

Tuesday, December 09, 2008

Empty

Looking for something that doesnt exist.
Intoxicated.

spoke at : 8:09 PM

Saturday, December 06, 2008

For all eternity.

B&J ice cream & starbucks greentea latte make me happy.
So this is what it had been all the while.

spoke at : 10:12 PM

Friday, December 05, 2008

Double standards.

I went on a shopping spree tdy, bought some nice stuff. It feels good to spend money. & now some pictures from the 0814 bbq which i totally forgot abt.